Today was a day screaming for quiet. No matter where I turned to try and gather my thoughts, people were yelling, talking, beating on drums, playing pianos, laughing, running, and just generally making a lot of noise. On most days these are beautiful sounds. I love laughter, the kids beating on the congas in my room, the sound of pianos everywhere, trumpets blaring, and the general loud hustle and bustle of a school. For some reason my heart was longing for quiet.
I stopped by the Vet's office on the way home to pick up our cat who had been there for a "procedure". He cried like a child all the way home. Very loud. It was quite funny....but just one more time of intense noise....and this time confined inside my car all the way home. The girls even tried singing to him. I said, "What shall we sing?" My oldest breaks out in Jesus Loves Me which tickled all of us. We then joined in and sand in harmony. It was fun....but noisy. He continued to cry, so it didn't work.
After arriving home, the noise continued. Practicing, vacuuming, washing machine (which I generally LOVE to hear), dishwasher, dog barking, cat crying, girls arguing over who was doing more chores....and the noise continued. Again, nothing out of the ordinary, but today it was really getting to me.
I have to take a day off tomorrow for a doctor's appointment. Somewhere along the way, I hope I can find a few minutes of quiet. It is quiet right now. The girls are asleep, the washing machine is humming, the drying is turning, but yet my mind and spirit are screaming. I often wonder how this can be. I honestly believe we must practice quiet. Stillness isn't just sound, it is a way of being....inside and out.
I know how to do this on the outside, but I am having trouble on the inside.
"LORD, my heart is not proud; my eyes are not haughty. I don't concern myself with matters too great or awesome for me. 2 But I have stilled and quieted myself, just as a small child is quiet with its mother. Yes, like a small child is my soul within me. 3 O Israel, put your hope in the LORD -- now and always."
May it be so, dear Lord.